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I guess my life kind of revolves around work at this point.

I truly donโ€™t mind it though. I really like to work. I always have.

Iโ€™m like my mother, she would never want to be a stay at home mom. And I donโ€™t think I ever would either. Although I used to think it seemed nice, Iโ€™ve seen many. My mom always worked full-time. Her sisters worked part time jobs. I think itโ€™s good to have at least something to do besides making your family and your home life everything. Then you have no other life outside that. I grew up in a really rich town, Iโ€™ve dated guys who had money and stay at home moms. What do you think dadโ€™s out doing?

Iโ€™m not trying to be harsh, but itโ€™s a reality Iโ€™ve seen so many times. Having a family and children will fulfill me in a lot of ways. I deep down know, I would need an outside activity or obligation, ways to socialize and continue to live a normal life.

Stay at home moms have way too much time on their hands. Those are the Karenโ€™s of the world, and they are the ones that will talk shit about middle schoolers with their daughters.

No…Not try to give them advice, maybe call them homely?

Iโ€™ve seen some pretty insane stuff.

The only time my mom ever got involved with teenage girls was when my best friend was jumped freshman year of high school. We had to carry her to my moms car.

My mom knew the girls that were around there, for once I didnโ€™t care that she was going to do something that could be embarrassing. She went out there, asked them if their mothers knew that they were out here acting like animals?

It was a bad bitch move. Moral of the story. Iโ€™m turning into my mother. I donโ€™t mind it either

We wonโ€™t tolerate bullshit, we will tell you the truth. But we also we will love you more than anyone you know, we will take care of you, we can have empathy for anyone.

My mother is my favorite person.

She is everything I want to be. And it makes me feel really good to know that thatโ€™s how I think now.

Iโ€™m so thankful that I had her. Iโ€™m going to make sure she knows that. I remember a time I wanted to be nothing like her. I was a delusional, know it all, angry young kid.

Tragically shitty quality picture. Oh well though

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โ€œ๐˜š๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ, ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ถ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ง๐˜ญ๐˜บ, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณโ€

All my OG supervisors at work got new jobs… and Iโ€™m used to hanging up front with the new supervisor, one of the only girls that works with me. We would talk about girl things a lot and reality TV. It was fun to have a girl to talk to and shoot the shit with, she used to love it also.

Now that she is a supervisor, sheโ€™s on some extreme power trip. Like looking over my shoulder showing me stuff that I already know. Blaming me for things that she told me I should do the night before. Denying that she ever said that. Sending slacks that make no sense, weekly beta that makes no sense.

Both of my old supervisors were totally different. There was one that everyone hated because he was so intense and uptight. Most guys, just say he was a douche bag. (quote from tonight) He was only nice to girls. So not bad with me..yet he was so intense either way that he still made me anxious.

My other supervisor, Brian, who hired me… was the sweetest dude. He used to go through things with me so gently, informatively, clearly, acknowledged my questions and things I said very nicely. It was never aggressive, or condescending.. it always felt very helpful. Very patient with me, definitely understanding, quiet most of the time. I just miss him a lot already.

None of this shit this girl is doing is clear. I tried to tell her that nicely. Sheโ€™s determined that it is very clear though. (I know more than just me who would agree with that)

Sheโ€™s actually committed to thinking it is. I was so fed up with her I finally got a little bit rude. I wish I never opened up to her because now itโ€™s like she knows too much about me and sheโ€™s my fucking supervisor. It just kind of blows.

Highly frustrating. Power trips gross me out, and they make me view you as a totally different person.

I see you now. Not cute.

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Little Salon ๐ŸŒธ

This room is a pastel, floral, and absolutely magical work of art.

Its also the first room that I truly was jaw dropped by, before I knew anything about art history. Or who Isabella Stewart Gardner was.

Itโ€™s such a pretty lil masterpiece

๐ŸŽ€ With a pretty pink bow on top ๐ŸŽ€

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It will set you free

Thatโ€™s one thing Iโ€™m actually good at. Iโ€™m not good at many things.

Iโ€™m a music junkie. I have been my entire life.

It sounds so clichรฉ and annoying. It pisses me off even to say it, but music did save my life and continues to everyday, probably.

Iโ€™ll always remember myself in middle school. Those were terrible years of my life…it kinda set my youth up for failure. Derp.

I didnโ€™t really trust many people at that point in my life. Probably two. My best friend at the time, and my ex-boyfriend.

I started to form insomnia and really bad anxiety, and I would stay up really late at night on my computer. I would sit on the computer for hours and hours exploring random music and finding new stuff to fulfill me.

I would make old-school mix CDs

(I kinda feel bad for the kids these days who canโ€™t experience that)

All the music my friends, siblings/cousins listened to, was introduced by me. I donโ€™t know why people make that sound like a snobby thing though….Itโ€™s one of the only things Iโ€™m good at, canโ€™t we just like consider it a sport?

The real point is though, it spoke to me. Always has. In ways humans couldnโ€™t at that point especially. When I need it itโ€™s always there. It

made me feel… understood. It was like a friend.

(it does run in my genetics. But the way I love music is unexplainable. I couldnโ€™t get to the point of it. Iโ€™ve been a walking jukebox my whole life)

Everyone listen to music. It makes the world go round. And maybe it could save your life if you give it a chance

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First off

My favorite thing about closing at work is, I get to be the Spotify DJ for the whole gym.

*Which not to (or to) toot my own horn or anything*

Iโ€™m very damn good at it. Get lots of quality feedback regularly.

I was doing just fine before you and your skateboard rolled up here, to the front desk…&Started using your grubby fingers changing my tunes, pal.