Allie Moran. 28 years old From and reside in Boston. Aspiring writer and photographer. nature enthusiast. borderline personality disorder and panic disorder. survivor. animals lover, music frees my soul, raised on classic rock, daughter of a forever dead head. avid poetry junkie. Everyday is a new adventure. continuously learning, and exited to do so. My overall goal in life is to be a writer. Since I was 13 years old I have suffered from an extreme panic disorder and depression. I grew up in and out of Psych wards, residential programs, put in DSS custody. Everywhere I went, came a new journal from my parents, who did everything in their power to avoid this. Those journals documented my life and journey to borderline personality disorder. I formed BPD due to my own childish confusion and mistakes to numb pain. Borderline is probably one of the most common mental illnesses, yet most people I know, or my parents know, never heard of it. Its a horribly stigmatized illness that should not be. If I had googled Borderline when I was first diagnosed I would feel empty and hopeless, and I wouldn't be surprised if suicides haven't happened simply by doing that. I feel that I was given a platform to help other young girls and make sure they know, they are not alone. If I can help someone from spiraling into the toxicity I did, I would feel so satisfied. Being a young girl in this world is hard, but it doesn't need to be made harder. I set myself up to make my life difficult, no one to blame but myself, but everyday is a battle that I continue to survive. you are NOT alone.